In a nutshell, the brother and sisters in the churches isolates me. I enrolled in but nobody gives me a chance to minister or serve in the local churches. Reason? None. They just think I don’t fit. And FYI, I used to be very fiery and burning in my faith, never missed a single service or conference. People is a bunch of heartless creatures. So I turned to God. Still I try reaching out to friends, but ended up I had none.

I looked into the mirror. I’m not born ugly. Nor born with disabilities. Nor stupid. nor too smart. Nor mute nor deaf. I speak like normal people. I accept people as who they are. Cares about them. I’m neither too obese nor too skinny. Neither too tall nor too short. Neither am I rich nor broke. But why couldn’t I have any friends?

Well, you asked me, not even one single friend?
I say yes. Once. I used to have a number of “true” friends. They betrayed me. Used me and took me for granted. Then dumped me when I needed them the most. Those are Christians.

Then you asked me, what about non-Christian friends?
I say yes. Once. I used to have plenty. When I started to share some truth or preach, they kept distance from me. Isolate me. Alienate me.

What about animals? You have any pets?
Oh yes. The only “thing” in this world i found worthy to befriend with are animals!
I love kitty and puppy. They’re too innocent to harm me. When I’m down, those little things are my best companions. They acknowledge me as their master and those cute little eyes turn watery when they see me cry. Then, gently sticked their tiny lil tongues out attempting to lick my tears away. I feel so warm when I hug those lovely animals. I feel belonged whenever they’re around me, just like my best friends.

Are you sick?
No I’m totally healthy. Normal in the head. Just dunno why I have no human friends. that’s all. I can socialise perfectly with people. Just that the society don’t wanna accept me.

I’m about to ask. ” Can somebody please tell me why?”, but I rather save my saliva because i’ve listened too much to advices and even psychiatrists. Non has helped me increase the number of genuine friends around me. Basically, there is none.

Thanks for posting this article, it makes me recall so much bitterness and loneliness in my soul, the Elijah syndrome I once had. But i had soon grown numb to it.. keep up the good work!